{30 thoughts} tomorrow

Tomorrow will be 2 years, or 731 days {yes, there was a leap year}, since I hit my tipping point.

I don't quite know how to put what I am feeling into words. So I'm going to choose one that truly sums up how I feel.

 I'M GRATEFUL FOR

{in no particular order}

 

Jason, Amanda, Mom, Dad, Sabrina, Sara, Carrie, Sadie, Kait, Danielle, the struggle, Angela {massage}, Diane {acupuncture}, Tony {chiro}, Brooke & Corinne {PT}, Robyn, books, Kim, barre3, Bree, Kathy, Cari, Robyn, FitBit, the scale, PCOS, the tape measure, Endo, PCOS doc, courage, strength, Dr Wei {shoulder}, this blog, other blogs, Instagram, Facebook, joy, Erica, Salina, Stacey, Eryn, Alison, Katie, Lynne, Wendy, Amanda, all my aunts - uncles - cousins - grandparents, cookbooks, my in-laws, weight watchers, Harper, all the barre3 home office team members, Chris L, coworkers, myself, my fear, New Seasons, my passion, my body, my mind, new opportunities {QVC, Just Jenny, b3 convention}, those who doubted me, those who encouraged me.

 

I'm sure I'll be editing and adding to this list for a day or more!

 

Fingers crossed {the next 2 years are as exciting as the last 2}!!!

-40 pounds ~ the proof

Left: Sept 2011 - Probably about 215lbs or so...

Middle: 5.9.12 - 191.8lbs

Right: 8.1.12 - 179.6lbs

-27.5 inches!!!

Since 12.21.11 I have lost 27.5 inches off my body. That's over 2 feet!!!!

- 10 lb goal!!

I am seriously proud of myself. Today I reached 10 pounds lost in 2 months. And to think - I did it while eating almost a whole box of Tagalongs...haha. You think I'm kidding but I'm not. It is not the weight watchers way BUT I did count the points. Those things are dangerous and delicious!!!

Anyways, the feeling of losing 10 pounds has been amazing. Sometimes I think the scale s purposely playing tricks on me, like it isn't real!! My pants feel so much better, my shirts {the 1x ones I had to buy in November} are too lose, and I really just do feel proud!

Now that I've found out I am insulin resistance I'll be slowly changing things up as I learn what is going on within my body. The Metformin has been going pretty good. No horrible side affects. I've been feeling really hot from the inside-out and that was taken to a NEW level while working out with my PT, Amanda, today. There was definitely some points where I was a bit wobbly and like majorly flushed {much more than normal}...but I pushed through and got a good workout in!!

Speaking of good, I had measurements today at PTing. Now I know my weights are different and that is because I weight in for weight watchers at 6am fresh out of the shower and I weight in for PT at 6pm in workout gear and shoes. I'm personally staying with the home scale...the number is lower ;-)

So here is my measurements. This is a BIG deal to put this out there but it is my hope that by doing it I might inspire someone. It's kind of embarrassing that I got to where I got weight and size wise but I know I am not working in the right direction and I have the support of my family and friends.

The waist and the hips are the ones I am most excited about. Minus 3.75 inches from my waist and minus 4 inches from my hips. Also {much to the dismay of my husband} I've lost 2 inches on my bust ;-)

I am so happy. I feel better on the Metformin {except for when I don't - which isn't too often}, I am losing weight, I am getting into a workout routine, I am looking better. It feels nice. Really nice.

We got to Kauai in 32 days and I am going to work really hard to lose 5 more pounds and get below 200 by the time we go!!

Fingers crossed.

no excuses {today} and no results {yet}...

Yesterday wasn't a good day. Between my burning desire to hear my results {after a weekend of trying not to think about it} and my hard day at work, I wasn't up for the gym. I should have been. I was packed and had a plan in my head but I just couldn't do it. I needed to decompress.

Today was better, though I still got no results. They told me last week that if I hadn't heard by Wednesday to call....I wonder if they meant call ON Wednesday ;-)

But today was better because I had no excuses - at least about the gym. I knew I had my sister-in-laws birthday dinner at 6 and that I get off work about 3:45 if I jet out of there I could make it all happen. So I jetted out of work, went to the chiropractor, and headed to the gym for 40 minutes of a workout. I feel very proud of myself. I would have never done that before.

What got me motivated was that I know I won't go tomorrow {YEAH for concerts!!!} and I'll go Thursday and Saturday. This month I am working out with my trainer once a week instead of every-other week and I work SO MUCH BETTER when I know someone is watching me. With my trainer I made a commitment to go 3 days by myself and once with her for the month of February. I don't want to let myself and I don't want to have to face her if I don't do it. "PT pressure" is a bitch and I'm paying good money for this so I might as well hold up my end of the bargain!!

I hope I get my results tomorrow.

Fingers crossed.