first book, first sense of relief...

I've been nose deep in this book for almost a week. I had borrowed it from my friend K and once I got the diagnosis I ordered myself a copy so I can obsessively take notes and write in it. I'm about 1/3 of the way through it and I feel like my life is written in the pages. It is so hard for me to explain.

Everything I've ever thought about myself - overweight, acne, oily, no MC to speak of - I made excuses for. I'm overweight because I eat too much, the stuff I eat makes me have acne, I'm oily simply because that is how I am. I know now that it is because I have PCOS. Knowing gives me relief and strength and knowledge.

It is helping me to really understand that I am my best advocate, that I am not "normal" but there are things I can learn and change to make my body work better for me. And most surprisingly, I have learned that I have WONDERFUL people in my life!!

My Mom has already stated she wants to read the same books I do, my Aunt (the mother of my cousin who has PCOS) spent an hour talking to me on the phone and asking great questions, one of my best friends spent some time researching low-carb diets and recommended another book that I will soon be reading. She's read it (she does not have PCOS but is very into healthy food and living). I've had many of my coworkers offer support and encouragement and shown a desire to learn more right along side with me. Many of my other friends have offered a listening ear. It means the world to me.

I am determined to learn to live with PCOS and battle whatever hurdles for having a family that they may bring. I feel better the more people I have working with me, thinking about me, and of course, keeping their...

Fingers crossed.

PS. Tomorrow I have the 2 hour Glucose test. Wish me luck!!!

and so it starts...

I am in week 1.2 of learning about PCOS. I don't know much...and I'm learning a lot. I am not an expert and any information I post or share or state is what I think, at this current point in time. Obviously my knowledge and understanding of this will all change, it has to change, and that is what I'm doing here. Documenting what I learn and am going through.

I'm just putting this out there so that I don't get slammed as "pretending to know" or anything like that.

You should also know this about me, I worry, a lot. It doesn't mesh well with pretty much anything in life...and I bet PCOS is no exception!!

My journey into PCOS started years ago but it is just now falling into place. More on the story later, probably tomorrow, since the story is dying to get out of me!!

Fingers crossed.

to blog here or not to blog here...

...that is the question.

I have a few other blogs. Three to be exact.

- One for our family events. And let me be clear that by family I mean my hubby, myself and our weird cat. I even named it, when I made it back in 2009, when we got married and included the word family...thinking that a family would be an easy thing to come by. Though we are a family, we want more.

- One for my homemaking endeavors. Originally thought out to be more about baking cakes but it has turned into a catch-all for my mediocre crafting, baking, cooking, and decorating skills.

- One for the "picture a day for a year" bandwagon things I jumped on in the start of 2010. I made it through September of that year...which I'd say is pretty good. This year I hope it make it all the way through.

The blog name, I knew, had to have something about rainbows in it. I've been known to pull off the freeway to take pictures of rainbows. I hunt for them, long for them, and marvel in them whenever I get the chance. If I ever had the guts to get a tattoo it would be something with a rainbow in it. In HS I always wanted a rainbow of starts...6 perfect little stars in a row, rainbow style!! The background picture is from my hubby and I'd first trip to Oahu in 2007 with my family.

I want this to be a blog, for however long it may need to be here, to write down my thoughts, battles, and directives of living and learning and loving with PCOS.

I was thinking about posting the news on our family blog but I want to continue to have a happy, fun place to document the events in our lives. I have this gut instinct that it is going to be a long process and I think I do want to keep them separate. So...welcome to my newest (and least exciting) blog.

Fingers crossed.