tomorrow...

...the end of the beginning is here.

or

...the beginning of the rest of forever is here.

Either way, tomorrow is a big day.

At 12noon I will be having a one hour test at OHSU. My wonderful husband will be accompanying me. He actually works not too far from there so I'll pick him up at work, go to OHSU, and then drop him back off. It should work nicely.

The test I am having is called a "Cortrosyn Stimulation Test". The test is to find out how adrenal glands respond properly to a hormone from the pituitary gland. They will put an IV in my ARM, my ARM....ug, this is why the hubby get to come :) Okay, once they put the IV in my arm they will draw my blood at 0, 30 and 60 minutes to see how my body reacts to a synthetic pituitary hormone {called adrenoncorticotropic hormone} they will put in the IV.

I have an IV's in my life but not in my memory. Though I hate needles I'd like to say I am getting better at dealing with them...that is, until the next time I get a shitty nurse - then the fear will be back with avengance.

Here's to hoping I don't faint and the test results come back quickly.

This test will be to rule in or out something called Late-Onset Congenital Adreanal Hyperplasia. If the test shows I have L-O CAH then that is what I will have. If it doesn't, then I'll have PCOS. It's like I either get a shitty {PCOS} or a really shitty {L-O CAH} diagnosis.

{I'd say sorry for the language but I'm kind of not. It's kind of how I'm feeling}.

I haven't done any reading besides from the above link ~ if it is or isn't what I have - I'm not ready for it yet. Honestly I'm not ready for any of this but this what who I am and what I have... The scariest thing about the possibe Late-Onset CAH is, IF I have it, is pasing it on especially if we have a boy. Even PCOS they believe to be genetic which is tough. It's really tough to think about now that I know, what do I do about it? Kids? Adopt? No kids?

I know I need to wait to think about all of this...but I can't help it. I just can't. And I'm kind of over people telling me "well you are still young" or "there is time" or anything along those lines. It doesn't make me mad but man, it just sucks to hear!! It is true, I am only a few weeks away from turning 29 but this ISN'T fun to deal with no matter if it was 15, 30, 40...any age. I've had all this my whole life it is just now coming to light. I've known for a L O N G time that this wasn't going to easy but that doesn't mean I have to like it.

ALSO ~ Tomorrow I am starting my new medicine, Metformin. Wish me {and everyone around me} luck with that one... I'm waiting until tomorrow because my Endo said to wait until after this last test was done. I'm hoping I'll be in the camp where Metformin helps and doesn't have nasty side affects. More on that later.

Fingers crossed.